Ugly Duckling

I've started a new workout program last week and I can't wait to see how everything turns out after a couple of months. After I had a 2-month hiatus from the gym in November and December, I lost about 12 pounds. For some, that's a good thing; for myself and many others, it ain't cool. I'm one of those guys who lose weight when they stop lifting and 12 pounds of mass lost is a big deal.

I've always been the among the skinniest in the batch, growing up. And we're no small batch -- more than 400 students per grade level. I only started getting meat on my bones in college, and it was a struggle. I wouldn't stop eating until I gagged. If I had boobs and ovaries I'd probably be fine being a skinny bitch, but as a guy, being skinny can be emasculating. I'm a faerie but I still like being a dude. And coincidentally, when I was at my skinniest, I was also at the darkest times of my life. My family and everything else was a mess. So of course seeing myself lose weight exhumes some of the shit and I've associated weight loss with that phase. I was 5'9 130lbs and stick thin with a square jaw so I looked like Skeletor. That's why now I like being within what I call my "happy weight", which is above 160lbs. When I hit 155lbs 2 weeks ago, I resolved to gain back the weight before it goes out of control again.

I drew how I saw myself a long time ago. Baklitang payatot.
Syempre kelangan may dede :-P
I found a great program specifically for my body type and it has to be the easiest program I've done. It's 3 times a week, 45 minutes max per session, and already I've gained 5lbs in less than 2 weeks. I'll strive to be consistent and I hope to surprise myself in 8 weeks. Wow rereading this paragraph makes me feel like such a shallow asshole but I'm a generally nice guy so I cut myself some slack.

That's my ugly duckling syndrome right there. When I was 15 and in my barong, someone mistook me for my mom's 27 year-old secretary's husband. Even my mom said, "matulog ka na ampanget mo na" when Diablo II kept me up late. My good friends snickered across the room about a new haircut and said I looked like a pasyente. Those were enough to bury my self-esteem and fossilize it. I keep this fossil as a paperweight on my desk where I can see it everyday.

Everybody feels bad about themselves from time to time; some people whine about it, some people make money out of it. Some people project their insecurities and start hating on others as much as they truly hate themselves. Some people acknowledge it and work on it. I am definitely a work in progress.


Ayoko maging swan. Gusto ko maging Pink Flamingo balang araw. Chika lang


Life's Question #3: Double Streaming Piss

It used to be one of my questions, this double streaming piss. A friend of mine verbalized it in Facebook today though, and I was nothing short of amused at the little discussion. Transcript below:



Robi's status:
Why is it when guys piss, sometimes it's two streams?

Juan Carlos: HAHAHAHA
12 hours ago · Like

Mark: Thats called a shot gun....double barrel...lol
12 hours ago · Like

Christian: dude, what kinda of a question is that? :)
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Robi: Dude, shotgun spray is so not what it should do. I hate it when the streams are so far apart that you end up urinating on both sides of the toilet seat. Annoying! I mean what is a penis for if you can't aim properly damnit!
12 hours ago · Like

Ike: Small observation, American men seem to lift the toilet seat up to piss more than Pinoys. I'm I wrong, and if so, why is that?
12 hours ago · Like

Christian: what it is for? primarily to shag, then to piss.
12 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Christian: Haven't you ever wondered? It's like one of the great mysteries of life.
12 hours ago · Like

Christian: ike: cuz we dont care about the next person even if he has to sit on it. :)
12 hours ago · Like

John Joe: after sex pee. Watch "Me, Myself & Irene" morning after scene
12 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@JJ: haha I remember that scene. Thing is It's not just after sex, it happens randomly. WHY?!!!
12 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Ike: haha I do lift the seat up always and it's all because of the double streaming.
12 hours ago · Like

Ike: Robi, to answer your question, during urination two streams of urine may be obvious — one coming from the urethral opening and the other from the site of the abnormal opening (fistula).
12 hours ago · Like

Christian: double-streamer! why do one if you can do 2? right?! :)
12 hours ago · Like

Robi: Someone should make a wide toilet bowl for double-streamers.
12 hours ago · Like

Christian: ‎"double-streaming-toilet, with auto-cover-lifting-button or sensor"
12 hours ago · Like

Robi: No wait, I have a better more economical idea! A pissing funnel!
12 hours ago · Like ·  1 person

Christian: ‎... and "butt-hole bio-metrics" for easy auto-user-setting-customization"
12 hours ago · Like ·  1 person

Robi: Patent it! We'll make millions!
12 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Ike: Thanks for the explanation, now I can go to sleep at night and will not suffer the fear and anticipation of double-streaming whenever I take a leak.
12 hours ago · Like

Ike: Peeing should be easy, if its painful or if you feel blockage you may have a UTI or kidney stones. Not fun.
11 hours ago · Like

Robi: I want to patent urine accessories like the Pissing Funnel (for double-streamers), a Pissing Scope (that you attach to your pecker for better aim), and a Pissilencer (still working on this idea)
11 hours ago · Like ·  3 people

Robi: ‎@Ike: thankfully no pain, just remorse when things get messy.
11 hours ago · Like

Natasha: Robi, You crack me up!!! When are you coming to visit?
11 hours ago · Like

Marlo: Time to get a haircut?
10 hours ago · Like

Gino: please come to market already with these products! it's about time! another similar problem: peeing with a hard-on, and what's worse, double-streaming with a hard-on
10 hours ago · Like ·  1 person

Franco: Oh my god, Rob and Chris, I can't believe you don't know the answer to this question. Really? Really?
10 hours ago · Like

Franco: There you go... JJ got it.
10 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Franco: Dude, it happens more often than the morning after sex. One time, I had 3 streams. Messed up, right? I mean, maybe I have a mutant penis or something.
9 hours ago · Like

Franco: ‎3 streams?? Holy fuck, that's one wide penis hole! Your penis hole might actually be the size of an infant's vagina.
9 hours ago · Like

Tim: The trick is make your little soldier your puppet before going and make it say AAAAHHH nice and wide before you pee. Barring that, you might have a little gallstone lodged at the tip.
9 hours ago · Like

Johnny: Yep one of my life's questions too. I think u forgot to clean up el jizzo again lol
9 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Timito: haha Or maybe it's just dried up jizz that causes it to spray like that. Who knows? Kinda reminds me of those upgrades you get in those 16-bit shoot-em-up games from the 90s. Mom, I hope you're not reading this.
9 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Johnny: Green minds think alike!
9 hours ago · Like

Tim: It's exactly that, rob! but you said it happens more often than after sex, which either means you don't wash up and keep your snake jizzed up all day, or you have a problem. ;P
9 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Franco: Thanks for the image man. It's been seared into my mind forever.
9 hours ago · Like

Robi: If word starts to spread that I have a mutant penis, that's fine by me. Just don't give details. "Mutant Penis" should be enough information.
9 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Timito: I practice good hygiene kaya! Nababara lang siguro minsan.
9 hours ago · Like

Winner: coz there's a pube stuck in the eye of the penis
8 hours ago · Like

Robi: ‎@Winner: It's like somebody's placing a small, invisible finger at the opening in a "sssh" manner so that when you urinate, it separates into 2 streams or as I affectionately call the phenomenon, "The Victoria Court Logo Effect".

Johnny Cursive =/= Jude Law

Back in college, my pretty classmate from social anthropology approached me and told me that I looked like Jude Law. Say what? Shut up bitch I don't fuck the yaya. A couple of years later, when I was on my first job, my flirty gay officemate told me that I looked like Jude Law too. Fast forward two years to a couple of hours ago and one of the staff told me to continue growing my hair out so I could look like Jude Law. I think the moon shines brightly enough every two years to make the minority think that I could remotely resemble Mr. Law. I told a friend of mine what those few people said and I got a laugh and accidental spittle on my face; I know, right?! I’m not sure how I should take it – I mean, come on – Jude Law is a highly successful Hollywood actor and that can only mean that I am his barely there nice try third world panget version a worse actor.


I remember Pokwang saying in an interview some time ago that an American mistook her for Lucy Liu. Pokwang is Pinay and Lucy Liu is a Hollywood actress. Jude Law is a Hollywood actor. Under these guiding principles of analogy, ako si Pokwang with a functioning dick.

Introducing Sebastian: Johnny gets his Pussy

Let me introduce my new baby: Sebastian Petrovsky. My mom finds the name a mouthful so she calls him Chivas. Sidekick calls him Bingles. Kitty thankfully doesn't get all too confused with all his names.

It's my sweetest little monster. Lilac lynx-point himalayan kitty @ 3 months old

It's about time; I've been trying to get one since March 2010. I couldn't though, because I was then set to go on a month-long Irish trip, then after that my dachshund got impregnated by my neighbor's schnauzer and a new puppy meant that there wasn't any room for a cat anymore.

I love animals. Ako na. Ako na si Tarzan. Ako na si Jane.
Mga Sampung beses ko rin napagparausan to nung
bagets pa ko.
But in our province, on the day before New Year, my mom killed my puppy by accident. She forgot that the little thing just had his shots and musn't be bathed for a week. She asked someone to give puppy a shower to take the stink out and it spelled death for the little one. Devastated, I headed back to Manila to spend New Year's day with sidekick instead.

My mom got guilty but I didn't blame her. She gave me the go-signal to get a cat, especially after a little mouse freaked her out the week before (Actually ako ata ung na-freak out, kaderder naman kasi). I spent a week looking for the right kitty and my sidekick helped drive me around manila to get the feline and his supplies.

My good friend K saw a picture and Sebastian at nainggit sya, bibilihin na raw nya ung kapatid nung pusa. Ewan ko, feeling ko felines just have a natural affinity to faeries.

How I Know I'm Gay #3: Church Edition

I wasn't trying to be blasphemous or anything. I'm a pretty good practicing Catholic for a 26 year-old faerie. But yesterday when I went to church alone, while I wasn't fully focused on the mass, I absent-mindedly mumbled the prayers: "Panginoon, hindi ako karapat-dapat na magpatuloy sa iyo...ngunit sa isang salita mo lamang ay gagaling na aketch." Halos tumambling ako sa kinaluluhuran ko ampotahh.

My next prayer was me wishing that I didn't pray that loud enough. My faggotry just got confirmed in Church.